Hello beauties, it’s been far too long. I’m so sorry about my absence, but the truth of the matter is that my life has completely caught up with me in ways that I never expected. I made a goal to dedicate more time to my blog over winter break, but I had so much fun with my boyfriend Glynn and best friend Anna coming to visit that I hardly updated you at all. And as soon as the spring semester started my life took a new turn. So here’s my big news…
I just landed my first internship! I’m an editorial intern at Surface Magazine, a contemporary design magazine featuring art and fashion, based in New York City. Last Monday was my first day on the job, and I felt so inspired to be taking the train in to work, sitting at my own desk with my own computer, and meeting the editor of the publication, Spencer Bailey– who also writes for the New York Times. While I understand that being a dancer and a full-time student juggling a long-distance relationship and an internship in New York City makes me a bit of a workaholic, I’m appreciating every second of this opportunity.
If I’m being perfectly honest, I’ve wanted to share this post for over a week now. But something was tugging at me, pulling me back, making me wait. I’ve come to realize that I was thoroughly embarrassed for my lack of blog posts, and I couldn’t bring myself to stare at my computer screen, contemplating a way to explain my lack of internet presence to you lovely readers. But that’s just it–I’ve had a complete lack of a presence on my blog. And that’s okay, because I’ve been keeping busy fostering new friendships, working hard for my classes, and beginning my internship. But somehow, I felt a twang of guilt anytime a friend mentioned my blog or posting something online. I felt entirely out of the loop, like all of my blogger friends had forgotten about me; like I had turned into dust and vanished into thin air; like I would pour my heart out and write this post about my internship just to find that nobody wrote me a single comment, all because I’ve been so inactive on my blog.
Obviously I realize now how silly and irrational these thoughts are, and I’ve mustered up the energy to write to you today. And I have to admit that I feel much more complete and confident knowing that I’ve finally shared some of my thoughts with you, instead of hiding from my internet presence. Have any of you ever felt like you’ve distanced yourself so much from social media for a temporary amount of time that once you’ve returned, nobody will pay attention to you?
Just some thoughts on my mind. I’d love to hear what you’ve all experienced in terms of being active/inactive in social media. And I promise to update my blog much more regularly!
Sweater- J Crew. Earrings- Kenneth Jay Lane. Bracelet- Vince Camuto.